Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Life without my soul mate

I have come to the conclusion beyond the shadow of any doubt that God Almighty is the only one that I can and will trust .. My best friend..my lover..my wife.. just a short time and not long ago told me as she did for more then a quarter of a century that she loved me but today with tears and much pain she is far and no where to be found.. its not the first time I trusted and was let down by my soul mate.. my jewel.. my crown.. just when you think you know someone better then you know yourself, you suffer yet another disappointment...just when you have finish raising all your children and are about to start a new chapter in your life with the person you have shared your life and everything in your life with.. you find yourself alone.. just when you think that someone truly cares for you and you in return care so deeply for them.. they drop the bomb on you with no remorse.. after knowing you and loving you for so long.. they want you to be someone else .. who you are not..

People think that after you accept Christ as your Lord and Savior that everything in your life becomes a ball of good dreams.. sorry to disappoint you but the opposite is what really happens.. but yes there is a sense of peace that I am unable to explain... The idea is to keep trusting God no matter what everything around you looks like.. because we are to walk by Faith and not by sight... I personally wanted to live by the words of Solomon in
Ecclesiastes 9:9


9 Live joyfully with the wife whom you love all the days of your vain life which He has given you under the sun, all your days of vanity; for that is your portion in life, and in the labor which you perform under the sun.

So today I still stand by faith and trusting my God that He is in total control and that my life is His will for me.. that my beloved soul mate whether she believes it or not is right where God has sent her for what ever her lesson in life is and is going to be.. other then God in our life's we will always wonder...

Who Cares

There are those who wonder a life time, lost and distress
thinking of the bad and looking not at what good awaits
They blame the innocent for their mistakes and misfortune
They see not the difference between a curse and God's blessings
having desires that are selfish, destructive and without merits

They envy what they see and give not thanks for whats to be
when all is gone, it is God who they have nerve, to question?
cause deep inside man knows, He giveith and only He can takeith
Away they go for they do not and want not, done for them
alone they die, though their body is still upright and alive
inside their soul has become a prisoner, in chains and shackles

Their mind is weak, so is the muscle and bones on their body
Tending not for the other, looking for themselves, find a hole
to hide from love ones, letting heathens turn their heart cold
Their minds can not conceive, that you reap what and as you sow
Loving as you give of yourself, will return double its reward
with honor,love and respect, we show and know, Who Cares.

written by Tbone / atw JAH
05.21.2008


God Bless .. Tbone out



1 comment:

Wife to the Rockstar said...

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can't imagine.

I will be adding you to my prayer list.